February is my month of awesomeness. For the next 27 days I am dedicating myself to doing things that propel me forward. I am inspired to do so because the 28th is my birthday, and in moments of being introspective about my birth, I have to think about what I am doing with my life.
One answer haunts me: Not enough.
Growing older doesn’t scare me. But living a life that doesn’t feel fulfilling scares the shit out of me. I don’t want to be one of those people who wakes up one day at 40 and goes, “Hey, what the hell happened here?”
No, no, no. I want to really LIVE my life.
The older we get, the more the demands of society seem to go from whispers in our ears to screaming. Hell, yelling, if I may. Everyone wants to know when you plan on getting married, popping out some kids, and settling into a lifestyle that looks somewhat like you have figured out what it really means to be “responsible”. Fun becomes something that is only allowed on the weekends, and in moderate amounts.
But, life doesn’t have to be that way. Life can be full of joy, and happiness, and creativity that makes you want to jump out of your seat. Your existence can be full of things that make you really laugh out loud, dance if no one was watching, and every other peppy thing you see written on those magnet cards.
And how do you do that, you wonder?
You have to believe in yourself. Almost to the point of stupidity. You have to have an unshakable belief that you are freaking awesome, and that you deserve to live a life that makes you happy. There will always be ups and downs, but overall, when you wake up you deserve to do so with a smile. You deserve to be excited about the day in front of you.
You have to remind yourself of this often. Because there will be some days when you will question what right you have for daring to ask for more than what you were told you could have.
And you will push through and continue to seek that which truly makes you happy. Who are you to hold yourself back from you ?